Showing posts with label I cried when I wrote this. Show all posts
Showing posts with label I cried when I wrote this. Show all posts

Saturday, May 30, 2009


Bees have been here


pollen dust
scattered on my petals
making the white speckled


perfect symmetry has been disturbed
and wind ruffles
and tuffles me


bees have been here


something deep within me stirs as
I know I am fading from the light
retreating into the canvas
of gods creation


it grows silently
new seeds of me
waiting to emerge
and dance in the breeze


bees have been here


and I am so grateful
for the visit

Sunday, January 11, 2009

To love the Dragon

“To love the Dragon is a greater strength then to slay the Dragon”

i look upon the Dragons in my life
and the battle, the fight to slay them

i put my sword down
my sword arm jelly from its weight
my body slanted with the bias of holding it

i struggle to stand without the sword
to find balance with the simple gravity of who i am
without the metal of my judgment

it lays at my feet in a pool of my own blood
bleeding from my eyes
that where blind

as the waters begin to move through me
they wash away the angry red
and calm my features with peace

the dragons all stand before me
as they have always
waiting for my attack
because i was the one that always swung first

my fear of being without defense was an illusion
they make no move to strike me down
and as my vision clears
i see them a new

they where of my flesh all this time
i thought them separate of me
i thought them beastly

and yet the evidence is clear
without the veil of fear,
i see they where only reaching out to love me

how could i have been so mistaken?
my shame washes the blood from my feet
yet they will not allow me to look at them with guilt

instead they hold up a mirror
so i see myself for the first time
i see my wings and my scales

i lift into the air, allowing the pull of gravity to center my courage
i fly towards a freedom i never knew was open to me

xx azyh

Sunday, October 12, 2008

My Life

I kept on telling myself I had changed and changed and changed again, and you know when I look back I never changed at all. I simply wore different clothing until one day I wore nothing at all. It wasn't the nightmare you would think it to be, walking nakid and free. It was simply who I am and I love every scar flappy or firm and every line how it flows like the print of me. I wear me as I am and I am glad for it.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Only You

Only You

Your gift wrapped presence
Ever now with me
So pretty in bows and purpose
But really you are under inside
Into each moment
And I want to see

I want to know that single you

Not parts of you
Or the art of you
Not shining through
But that wholly one and only you

Paper thin, water tight
Unpick the tape
Let in the height, of you
Reconnect to all of you
That wholly one and only you

So pretty in bows and purpose
But only part of you is shining through
dive into us
and know that wholly one and only you

Divine Spirit

You do not need to see me - I am here
You do not need to fear me - I forgive
You do not need to know me, or thank me when you win

Yell and scream and hate me
Till you know that you are safe
Curse and kick and fight me
Till you know your own mistakes

When the fog of habit lifts
When you face your self
When all is lost and in despair
Alone you cry for help

I will fill you with love and light
Till you can't turn away
Send you teachers and insight
Till you finally say...

I do not need to see you - I feel you in my heart
I do not need to fear you - I am responsible for my part
I know you are Love and Light, without and within
I know what you do for me even when I do not win

Azyh 25/7/02